... adding a point to the last post...

Today I saw this video(again somefruitful moment during writing thesis ;P..)..I made it for one seminar session 3 years ago and it inspired me to write this post….

Regarding to my last post and especially the last part about „not doing anything that would fulfill me now“ I have some more words to say…I am just incredibly thankful I could have worked in AIESEC.. thankful for each failure…

…. each success

….each person that annoyed me

….each person that inspired me

….each person that disappoint me

....each person that made me laugh

…. each friend I found

….each argument with my parents explaining why I AGAIN will NOT come home for family celebration

….each place I visited each culture I got to know

….each “Nestiiihaaaaam “ (I caaant manage that!! Too much!)” and the final “Uff… to bola tesnotka, ale dali sme to!” (Uff was very tight, but we managed”

……really every single moment!

Yes, now I have friends all around the world, there are companies I made contacts with, yes there are plenty of places I visited ( so everything what we usually promise at infomeetings came true ;)-and it s great!

BUT

The real yield for me was that SUPERCOMPRESSED SCHOOL OF LIFE that was behind all that.. no “play or game” as my parents would call it :)…It was REAL and intense learning ..

If I would do the video in these days, for sure there would be now much much muuuuch more pictures and the small girl would maybe grow up even more.. but the general idea would be the same…

Now just having school- the girl is growing just a little..sure- there is some learning- BUT the process is not at all so exponential as it was in each of my last years in AIESEC.. So to all of you that are still there- I really recommend to use the most of opportunities it offers you!!

I am just curious if in any of my future jobs there will be the learning so powerful every single month as it was in this organization……..

….Now I am afraid that I am loosing or forgetting everything I learnt- I am afraid I will not be able to motivate people, or lead a team or project efficiently, that I m loosing my planning skills (sincerely now I could call myself “ the procrastinating time killer”…).. I have no evidence that I still have it cause I don’t have so many opportunities to prove it!!

On the other side- I still hope that this experience is like swimming:

When you learn it and you don’t swim for looong time, once you fall in water you won’t go deep, but you survive.. and even more you will move and swim somewhere to..

so… I cant wait I fall in water again!!!! :) or I could rather.. jump stright away than just wait to fall, right? ;)

... Small update....

Loong time no writing so 1st of all some update of 2010 :)

January

I finally made the worst exam (for me) – advanced microeconomics, what allowed me to come a step closer to finish my studies this June!!

I also facilitated at Czech leadership conference (yes.. again.. :P) with very loose and flexible concept for different level and interest of delegates. It was 1^st time tried this way in Czech republic.. It was very interesting and powerful. For facis more demanding on backstage coordination a preparation though, but then easier during the process. Great and enriching experience! Especially because of co-facis and co-creators Mena, Mojco and Juro!! thank you guys really!!

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And I met so many alumni, and reconnected with people here- was nice, really nice!!! Alumni corner at MCP election, there were 2 more rows full of alumni (unfortunately I dont have a picture:-/ )

And even nicer was to be 1^st time at a Czceh national conference with my sister, and to see her winning several leadership and project awards and being proud as never before!!!!! :)

Yes.. 2 Pospisilovas at one place.. you can imagine :)

After this I told myself it was the last event…. Not for long that time anyway ;)……

February

My sisters team finally got through their education project "Edison" 7 interns to Prague. For the trainees the project started with special preparation week full of trainings, feedbacks, get to know etc.. I promised to Edison to do for them outdoor teambuilding and seminar for facilitating and presentation skills (a.k.a. TTT :)

The great thing was I had a co-faci for this preparation week- Mira (Jankas boyfriend- Janina including the whole family, huh?? :P) and I am amazingly thankful for his help, support, feedback and great job!!!

Some days before coming to Prague, being at teamleaders national conference and doing trainings on planning, project management and teamleading, I hated myself for putting myself AGAIN into so many responsibilities, thinking “when the hell I would start to write my thesis????”

Nevertheless the following event with the project was maximally interesting,

Not many of the trainees had long @ XP and the work with them was very different. The approach, attitudes, working endurance, language (we do not consider much how specific our vocabulary is- and I do not count abbreviations at all!) .. So- new experience for me.

Outdoor games in the center if Prague! :)

I totally DO NOT regret I did it! Not at all!!!!! (and btw I again confirmed to myself how much I can be effective the more things I have and how much I love to be overloaded!! :))

From that time I refused all “offers” to facilitate/ chair/ train to focus on my studies. (Yes was very hard to say “No”, but it turned out that it was good decision though..)

March

I started to write my thesis- about strategic analysis of a company- it is for my dads business – hopefully with practical use after I finish.

Sincerely I am pretty much into it, I love to get to know more about the market and the business, searching for the opportunities, analyzing the company from all sides.

Only thing killing me is the theoretical part..:-S... for that I have not much motivation neither energy and it s going soooo sloooooooow.. I need to read a lot, whatis really inetersting and cool but..the more I read the more I get confused and disperse and lost :-S…..

Anyway I need to finish by end of April so hard weeks and days are coming…

Beside that I need to finish 3 more courses and do the state final exam, that will be held in June- 1^st week..

so if everything goes well I should be finished soon.. VEERYYY SOOON.. my god….Scary.. isn’t that?? :-O

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Random corner :):

I started to learn salsa, with some friends we go once, sometimes twice a week for lessons and we learn beside salsa also bachata and merengue.For me it is kind of “keeping alive” my latino soul, and I usually come very happy from the lessons :)..

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Other thing form my life.. but very important is that - although I have many things to do, it does not fulfill me at all.. Reading my blog from last years I realized how I was happy and enthusiastic, when I saw some impact of my (bullshit - our!) work on people´s life.. Now I do not see any impact around, this academic life impacting me does not help at all, cause it is “only me”..too little.. I feel useless and what is even worse that I do not do anything about that with the excuse “I have my thesis, I cannot start doing anything else to not to be dispersed”…

..so I m in the circle but with the strong motivation to concentrate all my energy to finish this university stuff and start to create value in this world ;)..

What it will be concretely? I have several ideas and I will decide soon.. all of them are interesting for me and challenge me a lot. Actually all of them can be realized, the decision will be more about their order ;)… Getting excited to write about that in June :).

... Some thoughts about leadership...

I should be studying microeconomics, but I m just thinking about something that I am going to write.. I just need to put that down, to free my mind and focus on my university stuff again..;)

Yesterday with one of my friends I was a bit discussing what is Leadership for us and who is for us a or better.. THE Leader..

And I just want to open this topic here..cause... I m starting to be fed up with these weird understanding of leader as dictators, kings or gods..I m fed up with perception like Leader = Good speaker, Leader = has the power and uses it, Leader = president/manager/ person with status, Leader= Entrepreneur… Leader = TOP intelligent person …

I m not saying a leader should not have these characteristics or that they are not important for the leader..

I just want to say that there are some more important things without which a person just can NOT be a LEADER..

.. for me personally.. I want to share my philosophy of Leadership that I m trying to keep from my side……maybe somebody will join this opinion..

It happened to me several times that I lost so much trust in people I truly believed in and followed at the beginning until I suddenly realized there was no true in their words.. just some theater! I felt so much BETRAYED!

….How some people can admire somebody who has amazing speech about some cool things, values and behaviors, trying to motivate others and then does something different? How I can admire and follow somebody who I do not see INTO? How I can follow somebody that I don’t have TRUST to?

Talking about LEADER- I want to see a person that does have INTEGRITY of his/her thoughts, words and behaviors! I wanna see person that shows me his/her TRUE SELF.

2^nd thing that I see in many of my friends that I truly admire that they that they know themselves so good and know What matters to them and what NOT..

They know WHAT is important for them....

WHO is important to them, who matters and who not..

They know HOW they want to spend their life with- what people, WHAT place, WHAT environment, in WHAT activities, WHAT LEGACY they want to leave and in what NOT…

Knowing this they just know what is wrong and what is right - they can say NO because they know it is NOT the right thing on their path in life, they say YES because they are totally persuaded and you can even feel it from each of their cell..

And behind each “YES” and “NO” you understand the “WHY” !

And seeing, feeling, understanding this in them inspires me.. this is how they IMPACT me and others this is how I trust them,… This is how I become a follower!

…. And I m really happy I can say I know this about me…I know what I want..

And here I m coming to the 3^rd point .. just if I know what I want, and what matters to me- I VALUE and APPRECIATE the people and things around me..

Ooooh how I hate when some people who gain the position feel so “strong” and “powerful” and show it to the others… Just by stupid joking or criticizing about other people because “now they can now they got selected what means they are more clever than others” .. feeling as a middle of the universe… Don’t have to learn anything more… This just makes me so crazy!! (... and even more when I catch myself to do it as well...... that time I would kick my ass if I would be able to!)

I so much would like to see LEADERS keeping HUMBLENESS.. and look at the things form different point of views..

I sooo much would love to see them learning from the people around…

… and appreciate job of the superiors and subordinates even more......

And the same I want from Followers…..

I just want all of them- the leaders and the followers-

...to act according to their dreams and values

…and to trust, respect and learn from their environment……

Do I want so much???